so long oredi eh?

hermmm... dah lame dah aku x tulis blog. persoalannya sekarang, mengapa? why oni why?

inilah jwpnnye...

stelah seberapa ketika, aku terpikir. aku hanya memblog ketika aku rasa lonely. yes, l.o.n.e.l.y. when i feel sad, emotional breakdown or whenever i feel the earth is turning its back on me, i think i have to write something to ease my pain. setelah aku mengecapi extreme happiness, i will leave this website alone. i dint even touched my lappytop for so long. thats me. aku mudah lupa. aku juga xkan melupakan. diri aku sgt susah. sgt komplikasi untuk dimengerti.

sekarang aku sedang menulis. tp adakah aku kesunyian? oh, this time the answer is no. i'm not lonely, i have my enuar with me, i have my sisters, i kinda have everything. see, im complicated. i cant tell myself who i really am.

numberings
today is 10th of december. i have been at home for 10 days now since i resigned 10 days ago. so i hv another 19 days to submit my thesis. i finished none. i havent started any. im doomed. shit.

this is fifa

and about fie, my dearie friend, she has lost so much weight! im jealous. ini sumenye disebabkan oleh keaktifan beliau yang seringkali ke gymnasuim. if only i have much money like her. she told me she had lost 2 kg!!! demmit. so i have another 19 days before the class starts. okay, this is my target; within 19 days, i will work my ass off! i will run run and run and lose 1 kg each day. so, i will lose 19 kgs in 19 days! hell yeah!!!

i'll be slimmer than this

duit
money. why do we need money to live? i spent a lot though i gained hard to get money. money is just like water. bila dah dpt gaji nnti, i thought i wanna go shopping with my enuar. but here's my things-to-pay list (demmit!!!)
-duit braces rm100
-intenet rm150 (for 2 months)
-utang kaklang rm100
-umah sewa rm150

TOTAL rm500. gosh. i havent married but these are things that i need to pay at a young, delicate age. shopping? lupakan.

Love.. love.. all about love..

If you love someone bcoz you think that he/she is really gorgeous..
then it's not love...
it's "Infatuation"

If you love someone bcoz you think that you shouldn't leave him bcoz others think that you shouldn't... then it's not love...
it's "Compromise"

If you love someone bcoz you think that you cannot live without his touch... then it's not love...
it's "Lust"


If you love someone bcoz you have been kissed by him... then it's not love...
it's "Inferiority Complex"

If you love someone bcoz you
cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings... then it's not love...
it's "Charity"

If you love someone because you share everything with him... then it's not love...
it's "Friendship"

But...


If you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him...
that's "LOVE"

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets...
that's "LOVE"


If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to...

that's "LOVE"

shoutout!!!

i want to make a shoutout to these people that is important in my life. they are:-

24th Nov- happy 22nd bday fana!!! ailevyu! eventho i didnt wish u in sms or call u, i know u can hear my heart sings happy bday song aite???

26th Nov- happy 22nd bday abidah!!! mwahx mwahx! nnti kt jumpe dan mnyambot bday di rokdewel yeah! nnti kt ronggeng rokiah yeh!

and last but not least... jeng jeng jeng...

25th Nov- happy 25th bday khairul enuar!!! i hope u like the things that i gave! and i feel sorry bcuz we can't celebrate this year. i feel bad for ur sickness. skang dah baik kan? nnti kt celbret eh? i love u baby. love u so much. mwahx mwahx. xoxo!!!

baju cucu

suatu hari ketika aku sedang bekerja di sebuah kedai, aku didatangi oleh seorang tua yg bangsanya dirahsiakan. orang tua itu adalah dlm linkungan 80-an. tersangat lah tua dan menyapa ku dari belakang. terkejot bkn kepalang semacam ada org whisper dan memegang bahu ku...

atok tua : moi! (sambil memegang bahu ku yg membuat aku tekezot)
aku : omakko! astaghfirullahalazim! (termenjerit sedikit)
atok tua : hehe. lu tekejot kaa? soli ar.
aku : eh xpe2. nape uncle? (panggilan yg penuh hormat)
atok tua : sini ala jual itu baju cucu ka?
aku : baju cucu? ada2. tp bkn kat cni. kat dlm jusco adela.
atok tua : bkn bkn. itu baju cucuk punya!
aku : uncle mau pakai atau cucu mau pkai?
atok tua : bkn!!! haiya. ini macam, baju cucuk... cucuk sgt. mau bawak pigi luar melesia punye. (smbil menunjukkan aksi menggigil. sgt comel uncle ini)
aku : woooo. baju SEJOK la uncle. bkn baju cucuk! ingat ape la td. naik atas pusing kiri wokey?
atok tua : sama la. baju cucuk sama baju cucuk pon sama juga! tq arrr.
aku : sama-sama.

can someone pls give this uncle a dictionary?

Moment of truth

What gonna happen 2moro nyte?i hope my plans will work. definitely working. Amiiin...

petikan2 dlm sehari

petikan pertama; madagascar

finally i've said those words! i'm gonna stop working by the end of this month! yabedabedu! i hope they won't read my blog, i hope they will never reach me via this electronic device. if they found me here, i'm dead!

so arini aku keje mcm biase, dr pagi smpai maghrib. balik tu bawak ifan tgk movie. madagascar. he loves it so much. i like all the wordings from madagascar. everything was so meaningful. melman an anthropomorphic giraffe, touched my heart when he described everything about gloria the hippo. eventhough she looked just like fie, me and adeb sticking together with selotape, she adores what melman said to her. if only i had that kind of situation, i would cry. really touched my heart, vein and blood and whatnot.

petikan kedua; surat tidak rasmi
surat layang utk burung layang-layang iaitu kaklang

kehadapan kaklang,

aku mintak mahap skiranya aku memberhentikan diri dari keje ini membuatkan plan kt gi bali dah tamat. tp aku harap ianya still on lagi dan aku akan berasa amat berterima kasih kepadamu wahai kaklang kalau kau ngn ekin snggop menampong kehidupan aku bersama kau di sana kelak. sekian.

aku yg boros lg kecil,
oni

ugliest dream

i can't imagine myself dreaming abt him. why him? why must the person in that dream was that guy? it wasn't that gross but it was weird. the ugliest dream of my life. ugly and scary. in my workplace, we talked only for once. and it wasn't about something serious. after that, he never looked at me again, and we lead our own lives. but why him? i have to admit, the dream was fine though, but it's only a damned dream. when we met this morning, the same thing happened as usual. no exchanging of smiles, conversation, nothing. so i hate this dream. it sucks. and worst of all, kuchai@sangram was in that dream too!!!