so long oredi eh?

hermmm... dah lame dah aku x tulis blog. persoalannya sekarang, mengapa? why oni why?

inilah jwpnnye...

stelah seberapa ketika, aku terpikir. aku hanya memblog ketika aku rasa lonely. yes, l.o.n.e.l.y. when i feel sad, emotional breakdown or whenever i feel the earth is turning its back on me, i think i have to write something to ease my pain. setelah aku mengecapi extreme happiness, i will leave this website alone. i dint even touched my lappytop for so long. thats me. aku mudah lupa. aku juga xkan melupakan. diri aku sgt susah. sgt komplikasi untuk dimengerti.

sekarang aku sedang menulis. tp adakah aku kesunyian? oh, this time the answer is no. i'm not lonely, i have my enuar with me, i have my sisters, i kinda have everything. see, im complicated. i cant tell myself who i really am.

numberings
today is 10th of december. i have been at home for 10 days now since i resigned 10 days ago. so i hv another 19 days to submit my thesis. i finished none. i havent started any. im doomed. shit.

this is fifa

and about fie, my dearie friend, she has lost so much weight! im jealous. ini sumenye disebabkan oleh keaktifan beliau yang seringkali ke gymnasuim. if only i have much money like her. she told me she had lost 2 kg!!! demmit. so i have another 19 days before the class starts. okay, this is my target; within 19 days, i will work my ass off! i will run run and run and lose 1 kg each day. so, i will lose 19 kgs in 19 days! hell yeah!!!

i'll be slimmer than this

duit
money. why do we need money to live? i spent a lot though i gained hard to get money. money is just like water. bila dah dpt gaji nnti, i thought i wanna go shopping with my enuar. but here's my things-to-pay list (demmit!!!)
-duit braces rm100
-intenet rm150 (for 2 months)
-utang kaklang rm100
-umah sewa rm150

TOTAL rm500. gosh. i havent married but these are things that i need to pay at a young, delicate age. shopping? lupakan.

Love.. love.. all about love..

If you love someone bcoz you think that he/she is really gorgeous..
then it's not love...
it's "Infatuation"

If you love someone bcoz you think that you shouldn't leave him bcoz others think that you shouldn't... then it's not love...
it's "Compromise"

If you love someone bcoz you think that you cannot live without his touch... then it's not love...
it's "Lust"


If you love someone bcoz you have been kissed by him... then it's not love...
it's "Inferiority Complex"

If you love someone bcoz you
cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings... then it's not love...
it's "Charity"

If you love someone because you share everything with him... then it's not love...
it's "Friendship"

But...


If you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him...
that's "LOVE"

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets...
that's "LOVE"


If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to...

that's "LOVE"

shoutout!!!

i want to make a shoutout to these people that is important in my life. they are:-

24th Nov- happy 22nd bday fana!!! ailevyu! eventho i didnt wish u in sms or call u, i know u can hear my heart sings happy bday song aite???

26th Nov- happy 22nd bday abidah!!! mwahx mwahx! nnti kt jumpe dan mnyambot bday di rokdewel yeah! nnti kt ronggeng rokiah yeh!

and last but not least... jeng jeng jeng...

25th Nov- happy 25th bday khairul enuar!!! i hope u like the things that i gave! and i feel sorry bcuz we can't celebrate this year. i feel bad for ur sickness. skang dah baik kan? nnti kt celbret eh? i love u baby. love u so much. mwahx mwahx. xoxo!!!

baju cucu

suatu hari ketika aku sedang bekerja di sebuah kedai, aku didatangi oleh seorang tua yg bangsanya dirahsiakan. orang tua itu adalah dlm linkungan 80-an. tersangat lah tua dan menyapa ku dari belakang. terkejot bkn kepalang semacam ada org whisper dan memegang bahu ku...

atok tua : moi! (sambil memegang bahu ku yg membuat aku tekezot)
aku : omakko! astaghfirullahalazim! (termenjerit sedikit)
atok tua : hehe. lu tekejot kaa? soli ar.
aku : eh xpe2. nape uncle? (panggilan yg penuh hormat)
atok tua : sini ala jual itu baju cucu ka?
aku : baju cucu? ada2. tp bkn kat cni. kat dlm jusco adela.
atok tua : bkn bkn. itu baju cucuk punya!
aku : uncle mau pakai atau cucu mau pkai?
atok tua : bkn!!! haiya. ini macam, baju cucuk... cucuk sgt. mau bawak pigi luar melesia punye. (smbil menunjukkan aksi menggigil. sgt comel uncle ini)
aku : woooo. baju SEJOK la uncle. bkn baju cucuk! ingat ape la td. naik atas pusing kiri wokey?
atok tua : sama la. baju cucuk sama baju cucuk pon sama juga! tq arrr.
aku : sama-sama.

can someone pls give this uncle a dictionary?

Moment of truth

What gonna happen 2moro nyte?i hope my plans will work. definitely working. Amiiin...

petikan2 dlm sehari

petikan pertama; madagascar

finally i've said those words! i'm gonna stop working by the end of this month! yabedabedu! i hope they won't read my blog, i hope they will never reach me via this electronic device. if they found me here, i'm dead!

so arini aku keje mcm biase, dr pagi smpai maghrib. balik tu bawak ifan tgk movie. madagascar. he loves it so much. i like all the wordings from madagascar. everything was so meaningful. melman an anthropomorphic giraffe, touched my heart when he described everything about gloria the hippo. eventhough she looked just like fie, me and adeb sticking together with selotape, she adores what melman said to her. if only i had that kind of situation, i would cry. really touched my heart, vein and blood and whatnot.

petikan kedua; surat tidak rasmi
surat layang utk burung layang-layang iaitu kaklang

kehadapan kaklang,

aku mintak mahap skiranya aku memberhentikan diri dari keje ini membuatkan plan kt gi bali dah tamat. tp aku harap ianya still on lagi dan aku akan berasa amat berterima kasih kepadamu wahai kaklang kalau kau ngn ekin snggop menampong kehidupan aku bersama kau di sana kelak. sekian.

aku yg boros lg kecil,
oni

ugliest dream

i can't imagine myself dreaming abt him. why him? why must the person in that dream was that guy? it wasn't that gross but it was weird. the ugliest dream of my life. ugly and scary. in my workplace, we talked only for once. and it wasn't about something serious. after that, he never looked at me again, and we lead our own lives. but why him? i have to admit, the dream was fine though, but it's only a damned dream. when we met this morning, the same thing happened as usual. no exchanging of smiles, conversation, nothing. so i hate this dream. it sucks. and worst of all, kuchai@sangram was in that dream too!!!

mindaku yang tercalar

maken ari maken bngang.

nak take advantage aku plak.

mmgla aku baik, tp xkan la keje mudah pon aku jgak?

mmgla aku baru tp xkan nk biarkan aku gi sana gi sni transfer sane transfer sni. pnat dow!

AHH XDE! LANTAK KAN DIORG! BLN NI LAST!

pedulik kan aku kat sume.

aritu warehouse, esok mid valley!

lusa gi mane? johor plak? kalo japan ok gak!

sok kene bgn pepagi buta gi mid. adeyh pnat aku! msti blambak org dlm komiter!

tensinye!!!

hari yg paling xindah

arini aku keje dr pg smpai mlm. kalo keje smpai jd jutawan xpe gak. ni xkaye2. bgn pg mcm zombie. kriiing... amek towel... gedebush gedebush (ckupla 2 cedok)... patu pkai bj. borak2 ngn afiq jap. owh ye adek aku si giant afiq da blk dr machang dah. bleh buli die. patu aku gi keje.

arini xde mood. rase mcm nk tampau je sumeorg. mane xnye... ni adalah antara permintaan2 dari C**** dan A***...

"oni tolong amekkan tuu...
oni tolong letakkan kat sane...
oni bleh x tolong A*** bwatkan bende ni...
laaa... ni pon tatau lg ke...
oni... oni... oni!!!
oni u buatkan i ni...
oni u dah siap ini?
oni boleh bwat keje ni x, i ade hal sket...
u bwat ape tu?
u tgk sape tu?
u observe ape tu?"

setelah break 1 jam, aku dpt lg break stgh jam waktu maghrib tu. aku tdo setiap menet yg ade. pnat. sgt sgt ngntok dan letey... hwaaarh. wat a boring n bengang day!

Safi adalah kwn baru aku. dari starbucks. td die bwk air utk aku. refreshing but i wish it was caramel ice blended. anyway, thnx safi. sok bg la bende len plak. tq.

sg gabai howwwyeah!

it was like a week ago when fif n delayla beria2 ngajak aku gi sg gabai kames ni (iaitu semalam). adeb pon tau rasenye aku xdpt join. i had to tolak their ajakan since aku nye off day ari sabtu. bile aku suh pg ari sabtu tamau. hermm. but then miracle happened. i always belive in miracle, i mean wishes from us to Allah Almighty. yup, it was a good moment to know that aku nye off-day dah tukau dari sabtu ke kames atas ape sbb tah. yesssss!!! mksodnye aku bleh join diorg! dah lame xjumpe diorg since abes prektikel tu! rndu nk mampos. lgpon dah lame aku x have fun ngn diorg! yezzza! at first, aku igt saje2 je ade bekelah kat sg gabai. nsib bek la smbil ym ngn fif tu aku smpat tgk frenste's bday reminder. heh! sempena bday fi upenye. nsib bek aku pndai kaver. aku ni mmg ade memori ikan emas sket. ade petalian darah kot. sorry fi ailevyu. at least aku wish ko tpat pd masenye kan? hekhek.

ini ikan emas tau

*****

so i have planned sumting spesel utk diorg. aku kan suke bg org seperais. tu mmg aku nye habit. suke tgk org suke. aku ckp aku mmg xleh dtg, just enjoy urself without me je (ayat-ayat sedih utk mngaburi mata diorg). but then aku kol cp sbb die pon ikot. so aku igt nk tumpang die gi skali kames ni. tp upe2nye die kate the night before, die kene tdo umah delayla siapkan preparation sume. so the real day, aku just nek komiter jek smpai ukm. xde siapa tau cekuali sip. sesampainye aku kat sane, aku suh la sip amek. tp die kate die tatau jln komiter katne. demmit. tpakse la aku bckp ngn delayla tentang kehadiran haku. so kalini 2 org je yg tau.

*****

setibanya kat dpan umah fi, aku bg salam. aku sorok blakang dinding. bile adeb bkak pintu, aku mlompat kua. tegamam dan tejerit skjap adeb. ahahaha. lame gile xjmpe siap pelok2 lg. rndu nk mampos. patu bile fie nk trun bwh lepas mndi, aku sorok lg. bile die bkak pintu, aku muncul sambel membuat snyuman ragaku yg cute, manis, cantik lg ayu dan lawa. fie pndang stret kat mata aku tanpa prasaan. dlm beberapa saat (fifah ni mmg slowmo sket. hekhek) baru la die mnjerit dan terjadilah sesi pelok memelok jerit mnjerit (kuat sgt) dlm siaran 'jejak kasih'. wah rndu banget seyh!

*****

dlm kete amek gmbo, fi draif. patu cite mcm2. patu glak2. patu nyanyi2. dah lame xbwat gini. kat giordano aku nyanyi chris xlyn ponk. aida ngn yee jek. anyway, bsambong crita blk ye, aku smpat amek skeping gmbo ngn adeb dlm kete. patu bile trun kete waktu da smpai, aku pg tngglkan kemere dlm kete. sngal aku mmg xde ksudahan.

ni aku ngn adeb dlm kete

sesampainye di tempat kjadian, ramei gak la yg mnghadirkan diri. ade dlm 15 org kot. yelatu agknye. patu mndi2. amek gmbo byk2 gune kemere org len. adeb nye bofrenk, mirul pon ade. fifa nye safwank pon ade. sukela tu dorg tu. hehe. ramai gakla. nsib bek karipap ngn popia yg aku bli sbyk rm15 tu bejaya mnampung sumerg (tp aku ckp aku yg bwat sndri. tp dorg mcm tau aku tipu).

*****

senario2 di sg gabai:-
* waktu aku tgh bristirehat dlm air tejun yg memassagekan bdn aku, tibe2 mirul tnye, "amende tu??!" smbil mnunjuk kat kaki aku. lantas dgn itu aku mnjerit dan mngibas2kan kaki aku bile aku tnmpak pacat/lintah (aku xknal) tgh mnghisap darah aku mcm vampire. gemok nk mampos binatang tu. da brape byk tah die sdot drh aku. xpela aku halalkan. dpt pahale ape.

*aku pcaye kjadian di atas disbbkan kelancaran mulot aku sndri yg swaktu dlm kete fi, ade signboard tulis 'bekam lintah ade di sini'. aku pon ngajak adeb fi jum try tp diorg tak mahu. (sbnrnye aku pon tkot). tu psl la aku dpt bekam lintah free2 jek kat bwh air tejun tuh.

*slaen dari kjadian lintah/pacat, ade juge seekor ular yg belari laju atas air smbil cube menuju deras kat kaki adeb. aku rase die dah 'aim' kaki adeb lame dah. munkin beliau igt kaki adeb yg gebu (gebu ke?) tu adalah seekor anak ayam yg bleh dijadikan hidangan tghari. munkin bg ular, ianya setanding KFC kot. nsib bek adeb bjaye ngelak dan kami sume ptempiaran lari dan mjerit. tkot sngguh kami.

*okey, sblum tu, sesampainye kami di sana, kami sume naik tangga yg tnggi mnggunung utk nek atas cari air tejun yg boleh slide arr (fi nye idea). naek pnye naek pnye naek, waktu tu la aku tau stamina aku setanding adeb iaitu top 2 dari bwh. xsangka jgak aku. lmbap gile ktorg naek smpai aku trase btol2 nk cpr dr life guard. wait a menet. manede lifeguard kat ctu. bile hampir sumerg kat atas, mereka sume mngubah pkiran utk mndi palin bwh atau sederhana bwh kerna kat atas dah occupied. blambak org kat ctu. kami pon trun. pelik. aku plak yg palin laju kalineh.

*kami mndi manda dan ini je gmbo2 yg aku ade iaitu lepas mndi (igt x aku kate kemere tu aku ttnggl dlm kete fi?)

tu aku, adeb ngn fifa

ni kami2 yg lawa2 lg cantik anggun bgaye

ni anggota yg turut terlibat di dlm ektvt neh

thnk u so mashh all. i really enjoyed the outing. mwahx mwahx. love u. xoxo.

perhatian! fon aku dah ilang neh!!!

kpd sahabat handai, rakan sperjuangan, salam...

kat cni dukacita dimaklumkan bhw enfon aku ilang... again! kalini aku tatau katne. maybe ade kat dlm kete kaklang, angah or along aku, aku xsure sbb arini aku naik ketiga2 kete utk gi umah sedara mara g tgk diorg sblm g haji. abesla aku sbb enfon tu adelah alarm utk aku bgn tdo gi keje!

walaubagaimanaponk, esok baru aku terminate line tu. sbb kalo terminate skang aku tkot mnyusahkan dri aku kalo2 bende tu brade dlm kete kakak2 aku aje. diorg kat umah masing2. skang ni sumerg tgh tdo. arap2 la fon tu ok. amiiin. tp, kalo korg tjumpa, arap dipulankan la ye.

time kasih kalo ade org sudi mngaku. enfon aku sgt2la kuno. bkn itu saje, sgt xmileniom dan xmnarik pehatian pon, jd, kalo sgalenye dah setel, aku kstau korg sume ye (kenkwn aku jele).

ok, tq!

untuk kau

aku boleh buatkan cinta sebagai syurga untuk kau,
aku boleh surprise kan kau dgn apa saja untuk ceriakan hari kau,
aku boleh belikan kau pakaian tanpa risau tentang saiz kerana aku tau apa yg tepat untuk kau,
aku boleh datang tanpa sbb untuk bertemu kau,
aku boleh jadi angel kau di dlm dan luar rumah hanya utk kau,
aku boleh jadi devil kau bila kau perlu untuk aku enjoy dgn kau,
tapi aku tak cukup sempurna untuk kau

aku boleh sentiasa bg sokongan untuk kau dan perlu sokongan juga untuk diri aku,
aku rela menangis bersama kau tp tak perlu kau tangisi kesedihan aku,
aku rela berkongsi happy moments dgn kau, sbb bagi aku, kau untuk aku,
aku rela kejar kau walau kau tak sedar kehadiran aku,
aku boleh bisikkan kata-kata cinta, terjemahkan lafaz sayang, atas kepercayaan kasih kau terhadap aku,
aku boleh berusaha untuk sentiasa berdoa agar cinta ini dirahmati dan kekal, sbb bagi aku kau untuk aku,
tapi aku tak cukup sempurna untuk kau

aku boleh kiss kau sepanjang tahun, sepanjang masa,
aku boleh hug kau tanpa bagi kau bernafas,
aku boleh pegang tgn kau dengan rasa selamat dan selesa,
belumpun begitu, belum aku puas,
tapi aku tak cukup sempurna untuk kau...

sesi soal jawab dgn sapetah

Are you cheating on someone right now?

if i'm with someone, that is not considered as cheating

.

Have you ever gone out with somebody just because you didn't want to be alone?

lately i did everything all by myself

.

Ever been so anxious or overwhelmed that it felt like you couldn't breathe?

hmmm.. tah.. xde kot

.

What's your favorite lollipop flavor?

lollypop.. like the candy lollypop or 'real' lollypop? haha!

.

Do you like to go to grocery shop?

nope. byk tikus. bau busuk. i'd rather go to jusco or selayang mall instead

.

What kind of mood are you in?

bengang

.

Are your parents divorced?

alhamdulillah, still standing strong

.

What were you doing eight o'clock this morning?

still in bed. woke up at 8.30 a.m. dah lmbt gi keje! mandi! mkn! lari2 gi keje!

.

Who is the last person you told a secret to?

aida... and chris. cuz he was there when i shared my secret

.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

yes, yes, yes.

.

What are you doing tomorrow?

morning-still in bed
afternoon-struggling my ass to work

.

Do you know any songs that are older than you are?

sure i do

.

Can you even walk in high heels?

my practicum months was the heels-training-months

.

Do you like peanut M&M's?

i like daim better

.

Do you like water parks?

it's my bikini moment. yup, lovin' it

.

What was your last phone conversation about?

tanya kaklang coti hari ape

.

When was the last time you were truly and completely happy with your life?

more than 11 days ago (can't remember the actual date, but more than 11 days ago i was totally satisfied with what i've done, now not anymore)
.

Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?

superbly coolest handwriting ever (yea,ryte)

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Are you a morning person or a night person?

any season, any time

.

Are you a forgiving person?

i think i am. ntahla. i forgave ppl a lot. but i seldom received the person's forgiveness

.

Anything bothering you now?

my mum. dia sruh aku basuh pinggan snyap2 sbb jiran tgh tdo. mane bleh. bila jiran bising boleh. ni bsoh pinggan pon nak kne snyap. igt library ape.

Where did you last sleep other than your house?

sec 17, shah alam, more than 11 days ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.

Do you prefer hot or cold weather?

i wish msia has snow

.

Have you ever been on a horse?

when i was young. man horse? like it. haha!!!

.

Do you get distracted easily?

yes! i hate being distracted. u know it.
.

Do you have any strange phobias?

arachnophobia- afraid of spiders
.

Do you hug people hello and goodbye?

i hug all of my girls and used to hug the person that i loved the most

.

What's something that bothers you about girls?

they wear high heels with sluar bodoh (means sluar yoga bwh lutut yg kainnya ade lobang2, ni aku nmpk sorg akak ni pkai gi jusco. weirdo)

.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?

i seriously dont understand the question

.

If you could change your eye color, what would it be?

if i can change my eye colour, it means i can change all of my breakouts n pimple all over my face and send them to other people's face, right?

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Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

never. bcus my eyes arent pretty, though

.

Do you miss anyone?

ntahla.

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Would you go back in time to change something?

yes i need to have a time machine

.

Will you be in a relationship in four months?
insyaallah
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Are you a cuddler?

i like to hug. i'm a cuddler. i'm a cuddle bear.

.

Do you straighten your hair often?

never in my life. im considering myself to perm my hair all over

.

Do you have a song with someone that fits your exact situation?

yes i do. i'm done by pussycat dolls

.

Do you know when your father's birthday is?

of course i do.

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Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to u?

ryte now? ntah.

cp (ijan) vs oni (nuar)

oni lavigne: ko bg ape bday ijan?
sipi rowrr: aku nk kuar everytime mintak 10rm dari mak aku
sipi rowrr: hahahahah
sipi rowrr: ho aku beli kemeja n jaket
oni lavigne: wuiyo
sipi rowrr: patut beli jaket je skali x jumpa beli la kemeja
sipi rowrr: pastu the next week jumpa jaket
oni lavigne: wowwww
sipi rowrr: beli jgk la sbb aku mencik jaket putih dia tu
sipi rowrr: tu satu sem kumpul duit hilang begitu saja
sipi rowrr: waaa
oni lavigne: wuiyow
sipi rowrr: hahahaha
oni lavigne: brape hengget brand ape?
sipi rowrr: berkorban apa saja konon
sipi rowrr: jaket tu esprit
oni lavigne: wuiyo!
sipi rowrr: bape tah xingat
sipi rowrr: mahe la sbb aku miskin terus
oni lavigne: hahaha
sipi rowrr: 300 tolak singgit kot
sipi rowrr: NAK MATI
oni lavigne: anyway, bday nua 25 nov ni
sipi rowrr: hahahaha
sipi rowrr: ye ke
sipi rowrr: kau nk selebret katne
oni lavigne: any idea?
sipi rowrr: apa dia suka
sipi rowrr: apa benda kau x penah bagi lagi
oni lavigne: aku rancang, nak **********************
oni lavigne: yg ************** tu
sipi rowrr: kau mcm shaema la ni kumpul duit gak bday boifren
sipi rowrr: WAHH
sipi rowrr: ok gak tu
sipi rowrr: el exklusivo
sipi rowrr: hahaha
oni lavigne: ha ah!!
oni lavigne: rm*** per couple
sipi rowrr: uiyo!
sipi rowrr: hahah
sipi rowrr: lagi mahal dari tgif
sipi rowrr: DUH
sipi rowrr: hahaha
oni lavigne: yela cuba bygkan
sipi rowrr: dila penah pegi tanya la dia best x
oni lavigne: aku dah pnah adiahkan dia
oni lavigne: kasot
oni lavigne: wallet
oni lavigne: shirts
oni lavigne: ape lg
oni lavigne: hmm
sipi rowrr: ye la
oni lavigne: mcm lengkap dah sume
sipi rowrr: kau dah betaun ngan dia
sipi rowrr: suar dlm?
oni lavigne: suar dlm pon dah
oni lavigne: byk kali dah
sipi rowrr: hahaha
sipi rowrr: aku pon
sipi rowrr: eh
sipi rowrr: hahahaha
sipi rowrr: bukan kat nuar la tapi
sipi rowrr: hum
oni lavigne: hohoh
sipi rowrr: apa lagi
oni lavigne: wahahahah
oni lavigne: ape lg ek
oni lavigne: aku pon xde idea
sipi rowrr: aku rasa dinner ok gak
sipi rowrr: kau nk buat brg diy la
oni lavigne: tu pon dah
sipi rowrr: kau print gmbr buat artsy farty sikit dlm album
sipi rowrr: DAH?
oni lavigne: last year aku kasi die magazine yg pnoh dgn gmba ktorg
oni lavigne: handmade tau!!!
sipi rowrr: betul kau dah kehabisan idea ni
sipi rowrr: hahahahah
sipi rowrr: WUIYOOOOOOOOOO
oni lavigne: tu la psl!!!
sipi rowrr: gila bermaknaaaaaaaa
sipi rowrr: cun x
oni lavigne: cun!
sipi rowrr: tangkap gmbr x?
oni lavigne: dia syg sgt
oni lavigne: sbb its like a real magazine tau
sipi rowrr: aku angan2 la nk buat benda camtu tp pemalas
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oni lavigne: byk sgt gmbar n phrases
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oni lavigne: kat dei la gile
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oni lavigne: sume kad aku handmade
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oni lavigne: kasih syg
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oni lavigne: virginity pon xpnah kasi
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oni lavigne: btol la gile
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oni lavigne: hahahaah
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itinerary of the day

11.30a.m.
aku bgn tdo. bkak mata tros gi dapo bsoh kain. ibu abah xde. atok ade dlm bilik.

12.30p.m.
tgk melodi. tgk kisah abby ngn norman. patu mkn tghari ngn atok.

1.45p.m.
mndi2. siap. wangi2. gi keje.

2.15p.m.
msok keje. aida, chris ngn yee ade. sok staff baru lg sorg msok. michael namanye. kat tmpt keje tibe2 aku disuruh pg warehouse selasa neh. rabu lepas pon gi jgak. tp nape aku kene gi smpai 2 kali? kalo byr double, triple xpe gak. ni x. dahla blk naek taxi. nasib baek pakcik taxi tu baek. kalo nsib xbaek cemane? kalo dkat xpe gak. ni kat sgambot. pnat nak mampos. patu bile aku dpt tau yg xde sape nk anta aku gi warehouse, aku bngang la. aku diam kan je. patu aku buat keje aku. yg si chris boleh nak pujuk2 aku kata sorry sbb xde choice lain. mcm xmsok akal je tp aku kata it's ok. u can leave me alone. patu dia slow talk kat aku kata itu ini begitu bgini mcm2 la. ish bdk chris ni aku sekeh kpale tu kang. aku kata i'm ok i'm ok la. dlm pd chris tgh slow talk ngn aku, tiba-tiba...
"Kring kriiing"bunyik tepon.
aida pon angkat. setelah brape menet aida letak. n then dia ckp, "goood newwwwsss kenkwn! connie (iaitu supervisor aku) kata oni xperlu pg warehouse. its cancelled!!!" chris pon berlalu pergi. dlm ati chris msti die mnyesal nasehatkan aku mcm2. haha.

sjak aku keje, aku mmg jatoh cinta ngn pussycat dolls nye album, dolls domination. chris yg beli. best gile sume lagu dlm tu. rasa nak curik je. tp bedosa plak. patu stelah chris da bosan ngn cd tu, dia bli plak lg 1 cd, high school musical. what the hell. tepaksa jela aku dgr cd kanak2 neh.

dlm album tu ade satu lagu yg bleh thn jgakla. lyn jgak aku dgr. tajok die i wanna be with u kot. tp bile aida nyanyi, die tuka lagu tu jadik, i wanna work with you. wah teharu aku bile die kate die tujukan lagu ni utk aku. konon2 ktorg satu kpale. mmg pon. but the worst thing is, aida n the whole team doesnt even know yg aku keje smentara jek. diorg igt aku keje smpai bila2. diorg igt aku dah abes blaja, mmgla waktu intvw tu aku ckp aku da abes. walopon sbnrnye tnggl lg 1 sem. ish ish.. nak ckp nk benti keje nnti cemane la plak. ksian kat aida, tp tkot kat chris. mampos aku msti kene sumpah sranah. adooooooy.

10p.m.
joe, tunang aida ngn putra dtg td. joe bleh plak tgk prot aku. die kate, "cuba tgk prot oni" ches! nak kuros la camni. kuang asam pny joe! ni yg membuatkan smgt utk mngurus membara2 seperti lemak dibakar panggang steam. ape aku mrepek neh. nasib baek putra kasi aku mkn coklat cadbury td. tenang sket hati aku.

11p.m.
babay kat chris, aida, joe ngn putra. balik sma2 tp bpisah di tgh jalan. wah mcm puisi plak.

esok keje pg smpai mlm. 9.30 smpai 11. kan best kalo ade org menceriakan idop aku esok. amin. ok aku nak tdo. tatau nape aku still on laptop neh walopon kul 12.21a.m.

kisah along.

ini kisah along. iaitu along aku. anak sulong daripada 5 beradik dan jarak umurnya dgn umur aku 11 thn. along ngn angah dah kawin. walopon xpnah seumo idop aku ade abang, tp aku dikurniakan 2 org abg ipar yg paling sempoy abes la. syukur alhamdulillah.

hasil percintaan dan perkahwinan, along dptla 2 anak yg sgt comel, cantik, ensem, cute, annoying dan irritating. anak yg 1st, ifan, 3 thn lebih. nina pulak sethn lebih. aku sgt geram kat bdk2 ni walopon aku tau diorg byk kali geram ngn aku yg asek nak ciom dorg smpai lemas.

along ngn abg kerol, iaitu suami dia a.k.a abg ipar aku ni berada di dlm tmpt keje yg sama, tp department lain2. abg kerol slalu travel outstation. merata malaysia, sabah, sarawak, korea, manatah lg aku xigt. so bila abg kerol outstation, along ngn anak2 dia msti ada kat cni kat umah aku ni. lepak2 borak2 mkn2 shopping2. tu psl la ktorg rapat. selalu aku gomol2 ngn anak2 dia yg kiut miut neh.

hermm.. nape aku tulis psl along? nape? ni sbbnye. bbrape mnggu lpas along dpt confirmation letter yg diorg husband n wife kene transfer kat sarawak. wat??? srawak??? what will gonna happen to along bila abg kerol outstation nnti? along nak gi mane? xkan along nak duk 3 branak je kat umah tu.

sedih la bila along call aku cite yg 1 jan 09 ni diorg kene register kat tmpt keje sarawak tu. so bln 12 ni dorg dah kene ade kat sana. aku xredi nak say bye bye to ifan ngn nina. sodih! sian along nnti xde kwn. tu yg paling aku risau. walopon aku agak hepi sket la bile aku ngn kaklang layak menduduki umah die kat coalfield tu nnti. hehehehe...

xpela along, oni doakan along sentiasa xbeseorangan bila kat sawak nnti. oni lev along, ifan, nina ngn abg kerol sgt2.

p/s:- i am totally not ready to send them to klia and say goodbye. i am afraid i will burst into tears tanpa dpt dicontrol... owh tidaaak~

ifan

nina

aku dan hari aku

walopon arini aku teramat nantok dan letih, setelah abes keje aku tros blk umah. arini aku keje morning so ptg tu aku dah free. sempat aku belikan 2 helai tshirts utk abah ngn ....

smpai2 jek kat umah aku bg abah baju baru yg teramat cantik skali di dunia ni. abah suke sgt. bkn ape, abah ni memilih sgt. ibu mmg benci kalo nak bli brg2 ngn die. kalo soping tu brape jam je abes kat hanya satu tmpat. habis masa utk memilih.. oww wait a minute, skang aku tau aku ikot jejak sape dlm hal2 bershopping.

patu bile ibu abah kuar, aku tgk tv.. baring dpan tv sambil brehat dlm keadaan yg amat selesa dan tenang dan aman dan damai. patu sedar2 jek kul 8.30 mlm. ade dlm beberapa menet kot aku tertido.. walopon tdo aku sgt kjap tp aku dpt la sket ketenangan..

patu aku bgn mcm seorg zombie aku tros pg dapo, sediakan pinggan, nasik, laok pauk yg ada, sediakan air, air basoh tgn, tarikkan krusi kuar drpd meja. patu aku gi bilik atok (formerly known as my own room), dan tros jerit dgn nada yg kuat, "atok, makaaaan!! makan tok, makaaan!!!" sambil membuat aksi tgn masok dlm mulut.

bukan ape, bkn sngaja aku carik gado ngn atok jerit2 kat dia, tp atok ni dah tua sgt. dah xboleh dgr dgn baik. jln pon pkai tonkat. by the way, nama die atok hasan, iaitu bapak kpd abah aku. dia asalnye perak tp 4 the time being dia duk cni. walopon dia tersgt tua iaitu 91 thn, kami sbg cucu cicit piot, berasa dia akan hidup lagi dan xde ciri2 saket tenat. mana tak nye, kakak atok aku meninggal umo 115 thn manakala bapa mereka iaitu moyang aku meninggal pd umo 109 thn. ish ish ish..

ok sesudah bg atok mkn, ibu abah pon balik.. aku pon ngajak ibu abah mkn. kiranya aku blnje ibu pnye bday la. kami memilih kdai steak yg bdekatan ngn umah aje. malas nk g jaoh2 memandangkan ari ni sgt pana walopon waktu mlm.

sesudah mkn, aku blk dan online. dan kesimpulannya adalah... arini aku byk menghappykan byk pihak, iaitu abah kerna dia dpt baju baru dari aku (mahal weh.. hehe), ibu plak dpt kekenyanggannya dlm prot, dan atok pon happy tatkala dia diberi mkn oleh aku.. dan last skali... webcam laptop aku rosakkk!!! cemane nak repair neh!!!!!!

perlukah aku teruskan walaupun tiada kesudahan..

ya Allah ya tuhanku, bagilah aku petunjuk..

aku

genap 2 bulan satu hari aku xtulis blog.. dah nape ngn aku.. buat sesuatu tp xde komitmen. sebab aku memang mcm ni. aku sgt letih skang ni.. sgt sgt letih smpai xde masa utk diri sendiri xde masa utk semua bende..

seperti biase, life so far..

*kaki aku terasa sgt sakit setiap hari bagai nak patah-patah

*aku telah membuat ramai kawan setakat ini tapi hati aku amat sedih krn kwn2 di shah alam aku lupakan seketika kerana mereka xde di depan mata

*aku amat bersalah stiap kali aku mkn dgn byk tp aku pedulik ape

*bila xde org kisah kan idup aku, hati aku dan hala tujuan aku, aku amat sedih tp.. perlukah aku sedih..

hidup mesti diteruskan.. itu kata-kata dia..